I remembered that you and Tony had a website and I visited yesterday and I left a post. I read his articles and his words were quite powerful, and what you said couldn't be any truer itself. If you want, you can post this (if it is in any relevance).

April 20, 2002 was by far the worst day of my life. I lost someone very dear to my heart, and to this day I still can't believe she is gone. Her name was, but still is, Tressa Ann Gross. She was my cousin and one of my best friends. She died from a date rape drug that someone put into her drink at a party. She never asked for that, and I still don't understand why her life was robbed so early. She was only 25.

Now, I know her death is far different than Tony's, but the fact is, I lost someone that was special to me. Like you, she was like an older sister and the person who could analyze any given situation and figure out a solution you never thought was possible. I am so mad and upset to this day that she is gone, and it has almost been 3 years.

The fact is, death is something that we will never understand, especially when life is taken away from us so young. Why did Tony do what he did? Will you ever understand? And are we really meant to know why? From reading Tony's articles, he seemed really depressed and he always seemed that way, even when I knew him at Career Academy. I don't really know all the facts and I could be wrong, but I know the confusion and pain and nothing people could say or do could ever make the pain go away. Only time can heal wounds, but even time isn't enough.

"Life is a time for learning. We must learn that our life is as important as any other person on earth, but never more important. Even when their departure may cause us pain, the greatest gift is the gift they have given us already." -me

Take care,

Stephanie